vacation

Well, it's Sunday. My vacation is going to be over soon. I may have to go back to work Wednesday...depends on the new schedule. I haven't really accomplished anything this week. I don't even feel like I spent very good quality time with my kids. I went down to my brother's and saw his house and the church he started. Then we went to my Dad's and visited a bit before heading home. I don't think Joseph had a very good time. He took his game system but forgot the cords to hook it up. Jared had a pretty good time though. It will probably be a while before I head back there again.

I think there is something going on with me. I don't know what it is or if it's a good thing or a bad thing. I find myself increasingly avoiding contact with people. It seems to be a struggle to interact with them. I find myself just wanting to be by myself and I don't know why. It's not like that all the time....but it's getting like that more and more. It worries me. I didn't used to be like that. Maybe it's hormones. I do believe I'm pre-menopausal. I've got to find a way to get out of this funk though.

Ok, enough about my personal problems. Today I'm going to get my ass in gear and do something around here if it kills me. My house is a PIT! I'll put my System of a Down compilation CD in the player and I'm sure it will motivate me to do something around here. Getting something accomplished always makes me feel better. I should probably jump in the shower first too. I didn't take a shower yesterday. I told you I was in a funk...LOL.

I don't want to go back to work. I know I have to....but why can't I find a wealthy man who's everything I ever dreamed of that will take care of me? I know...it's a fairytale...a myth. I really don't need a man to take care of me anyway. I miss the sex though. That's probably the one thing I miss the most. I love all that physical contact...all those bodily fluids going everywhere. Timothy and I had some good sex too...when we had it...LOL. There at the end it was pretty much non-existant. Ok, I'm all over the place here...LOL. I think it's time to stop this and go jump in the shower and get motivated. I'll let you know how it all works out today.

Ciao!