How do you nicely tell someone you don't want to see them again....ever?
I know. There is no nice way to tell someone that. I'm going to have to upset someone. It's him or me though...and I don't intend for it to be me. I'm not going to punish myself and keep seeing him just so he won't feel bad.
I realize now that I should have never started seeing him. I knew I wasn't really interested in him. I hadn't been with anyone in a while though....you know....sexually. That was the major draw. Talk about mistakes though. The first time was exciting...new. It just went downhill from there though. I can't even get excited when he makes out with me and we've only been together 3 times. Not good.
Now, he's calling me all the time and wanting to spend every free moment with me. I told him I wasn't looking for a serious relationship but that didn't seem to have much affect on him.
The choices we make and consequences we have to deal with....sigh. Lessons learned....right? I sure hope so. I really don't need to be in any sort of a relationship right now. I have a hard enough time dealing with my busy life without adding that to the mix. I haven't even done much writing lately and that's one thing I don't want to push to the side.
I don't need a man. Yeah, they're nice to look at but way more trouble than they're worth. They suck the life out of you like the leeches they are.
Bitter? Who..me? LOL
Chalk it up to bad experiences....bad choices. Trouble is...we don't know they're bad choices until we make them...LOL. Funny how life works.
Chippendale hottie
Don't we make a cute pair?
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
wow...again
Time flies when you're having fun....or not having fun...for that matter. I can't believe it's been 6 days since I posted. It doesn't seem like it's been that long.
Well, nothing much has been happening around here, so you didn't miss much. I haven't been writing. I haven't been doing much of anything. I have been in a blah mood again. I hate those. What's a girl to do though? I can't afford psychotherapy. At the best, I might be able to afford shock therapy and that's if I do it myself by throwing the hair dryer in the shower with me...LOL.
I didn't really have anything to say, just thought I'd inform you of that fact just in case you're expecting this entry to be mind bogglingly spectacular. In fact, I think I've used up whatever conversational material I had. Sorry.
I guess I'll put you out of your misery since you're still reading this...LOL.
Ciao!
Well, nothing much has been happening around here, so you didn't miss much. I haven't been writing. I haven't been doing much of anything. I have been in a blah mood again. I hate those. What's a girl to do though? I can't afford psychotherapy. At the best, I might be able to afford shock therapy and that's if I do it myself by throwing the hair dryer in the shower with me...LOL.
I didn't really have anything to say, just thought I'd inform you of that fact just in case you're expecting this entry to be mind bogglingly spectacular. In fact, I think I've used up whatever conversational material I had. Sorry.
I guess I'll put you out of your misery since you're still reading this...LOL.
Ciao!
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Sorry
Wow, I almost forgot about this blog. How did that happen? Ok, maybe I have a few too many irons in the fire. Maybe I'm just getting old and forgetful.
Anyway, nothing much has been happening. I paid for a website subscription but still haven't really figured out how to get it going. Very frustrating. I think it's one of those things I'll have to work on when I'm in a really good mood.
I haven't really been working on my writing much lately. I've done a few sentences here and there. Sometimes I come to halt when I get into territory that I haven't thought about. Yeah, I have my outline, but it's just a basic map. So...I'm thinking about writing out of sequence. I actually already did that with the maggot scene. It seemed to work out ok. I kept writing further with it. It's toward the end of the story. It kinda feels weird writing out of sequence but I guess it will all come together in the end. It's not like I won't have to do some revisions. I think it will help my motivation as well. When I get stuck on a particular scene, I have a hard time sitting at the computer trying to figure it out. I know my subconscious will come to the rescue eventually, but in the meantime it would help to have something else to do.
The weather has been absolutely gorgeous here. It really makes me want to be active. It's a good thing because I really need to be more active. I have to take advantage of the mood when it overtakes me....it won't last forever...LOL. That's something I've noticed a lot lately. Well, I've been noticing it for a while now...but I've actually been thinking about it in depth recently. I'm talking about my moods. I have never been so moody in my entire life. It's not like I'm a bitch or anything (I can be though) but just the differences in how I feel or what I feel like doing changes so much from day to day....heck...from hour to hour...LOL. For example, I was off Sunday, had planned on doing a lot of work around the house, had absolutely no motivation to do anything. It was a wasted day. I was off Monday too (yesterday). I had a bit more motivation and worked outside quite a bit. It was a beautiful day. I didn't do much inside though. Now, today, I woke up feeling great and have already worked in the kitchen and made some cookie dough to bake off when the kids come back. I've done a little writing as well. I'm getting ready to go back outside and do some more work in the yard as well. I wish every day was like this.
Well, I could sit here and talk all day...but that's not going to get anything done. I'm going to go outside and enjoy another beautiful day.
Ciao!
Anyway, nothing much has been happening. I paid for a website subscription but still haven't really figured out how to get it going. Very frustrating. I think it's one of those things I'll have to work on when I'm in a really good mood.
I haven't really been working on my writing much lately. I've done a few sentences here and there. Sometimes I come to halt when I get into territory that I haven't thought about. Yeah, I have my outline, but it's just a basic map. So...I'm thinking about writing out of sequence. I actually already did that with the maggot scene. It seemed to work out ok. I kept writing further with it. It's toward the end of the story. It kinda feels weird writing out of sequence but I guess it will all come together in the end. It's not like I won't have to do some revisions. I think it will help my motivation as well. When I get stuck on a particular scene, I have a hard time sitting at the computer trying to figure it out. I know my subconscious will come to the rescue eventually, but in the meantime it would help to have something else to do.
The weather has been absolutely gorgeous here. It really makes me want to be active. It's a good thing because I really need to be more active. I have to take advantage of the mood when it overtakes me....it won't last forever...LOL. That's something I've noticed a lot lately. Well, I've been noticing it for a while now...but I've actually been thinking about it in depth recently. I'm talking about my moods. I have never been so moody in my entire life. It's not like I'm a bitch or anything (I can be though) but just the differences in how I feel or what I feel like doing changes so much from day to day....heck...from hour to hour...LOL. For example, I was off Sunday, had planned on doing a lot of work around the house, had absolutely no motivation to do anything. It was a wasted day. I was off Monday too (yesterday). I had a bit more motivation and worked outside quite a bit. It was a beautiful day. I didn't do much inside though. Now, today, I woke up feeling great and have already worked in the kitchen and made some cookie dough to bake off when the kids come back. I've done a little writing as well. I'm getting ready to go back outside and do some more work in the yard as well. I wish every day was like this.
Well, I could sit here and talk all day...but that's not going to get anything done. I'm going to go outside and enjoy another beautiful day.
Ciao!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
A New Passion
Ok, so I'm a late bloomer. Everyone and their dog has a blog these days. And now, here I am, slowly walking into the surf, testing the waters, while everyone (and their dog) is out there swimming and splashing around. It's never to late to (insert appropriate label here) though, right? Doesn't matter what it is (or how old you are)...there's always someone who will tell you "It's not to late". So, here I am, learning how to blog (and I'm not talking about this little personal project here) and hoping that I can make it a wonderful tool for my writing. I have to say, it's a little daunting, for someone who doesn't read blogs, to try and figure them out. I do like the idea of keeping a journal so that part is easy. The hard part is figuring out all the other stuff like theme and style and extras that will make it "pop". That's what I'm seeking to learn. And I've been seeking the last few days. Of course, since I've only been seeking a few days, I haven't actually found much...LOL. Every journey begins with that first step though. Like a big ball of tin foil....it starts with one scrap. I hope to have a very big ball of foil when I'm done. I want a blog that gets people as excited about my story as I am...that gives me followers who are supportive, helpful and knowledgeable. I've got the day off tomorrow so I'm going to try and do some more seeking. I'm really excited about this and with my impatient nature, I would like to spend every minute working towards my goal until it is complete. Unfortunately, my blog would be no use if I didn't fit some writing in there somewhere. It's been a few days since I've done any real writing too. I need to try and get some of that done. You can also pencil in lawnmowing, house cleaning and wood cutting to that schedule...LOL...in that order of importance. Ok, I think that's enough for now. I'm tired and this damn program won't let me make paragraph breaks and it's making me irritated. Ciao!
Friday, September 4, 2009
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Surprise!
Well, I worked today and found out that I'm off tomorrow! Surprise! That's a good surprise though. I'll take it. I hope I get some stuff done. I really need to write....and work in the yard. I've been doing a little here and there and it feels good to accomplish something. I have the TNT security guy coming over tomorrow to get the security system working again. It's about time. I'll feel a lot more comfortable knowing that it works. I'd cry if I my computer got stolen. Well, for some reason I can't get this thing to seperate paragraphs right now...so I'll stop and maybe start again later...who knows? Ciao!
Monday, August 31, 2009
beautiful day
Feeling great today...except for this heartburn that won't seem to go away. It's been very relaxing and I've actually accomplished a few things. I've done some writing today, 1500 words, and I hope to get that much more done before the day is over. Last night Elyn said I needed to get 5000 words done...LOL. Wouldn't it be a hoot if I did? I would be jumping for joy.
It's back to work tomorrow. Wish I could afford to just work 4 days a week. Maybe when my book gets published I can cut back on my "day job" so I can write more. That would be a dream come true.
Had a great evening last night. Elyn, Elisabeth and Andrea came over and visited for a while. I just love them to pieces. I wish Loretta could have come. She missed out on some great margaritas. We sat and talked for a bit and then watched Jeff Dunham. He's hilarious.
Elyn has been keeping her animals at my house for a bit until she finds a new place to live. Last night she found out one of the cages had cracked and the cats had escaped. I believe there were 5 of them in that cage. She couldn't find any of them. I felt so bad for her. I hope they turn up. She'll be coming back this evening I believe to look for them again.
Well, I better finish this and go eat dinner. I am having chicken and rice this evening...yumm. I made extra so I'll have some to take to work with me for lunch.
Ciao!
It's back to work tomorrow. Wish I could afford to just work 4 days a week. Maybe when my book gets published I can cut back on my "day job" so I can write more. That would be a dream come true.
Had a great evening last night. Elyn, Elisabeth and Andrea came over and visited for a while. I just love them to pieces. I wish Loretta could have come. She missed out on some great margaritas. We sat and talked for a bit and then watched Jeff Dunham. He's hilarious.
Elyn has been keeping her animals at my house for a bit until she finds a new place to live. Last night she found out one of the cages had cracked and the cats had escaped. I believe there were 5 of them in that cage. She couldn't find any of them. I felt so bad for her. I hope they turn up. She'll be coming back this evening I believe to look for them again.
Well, I better finish this and go eat dinner. I am having chicken and rice this evening...yumm. I made extra so I'll have some to take to work with me for lunch.
Ciao!
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