Argh!

Second day back at work. Tired as hell. I have to get used to getting up early all over again. What am I saying? I wasn't used to it before my vacation...LOL. Does anyone ever really get used to getting up before daylight?

Had a wonderful writers meeting last night. I love everyone there. I get to know new people better all the time. Everyone is so talented. It's wonderful to see the ideas that come from different people. I can't wait till someone gets published. It will be a celebration for us all.

Timothy and I have been talking more. I hesitate to write about him in here, but isn't that the whole point of this? To get used to writing about personal things when you realize someone else might be reading them? I miss him. I can't really tell anyone that though. If I did, I would only be berated for it. I can't help it though. He knows me like no one else. I realize he's not perfect. I'm not either. There were several problems that we had living together. Now that we're not living together, those things kinda fade into the background and it's easy to focus on all the reasons I fell for him in the first place. No, he's not moving back to OK. To tell the truth, I don't know what will end up happening. Maybe we'll end up getting back together again someday. We have some things that we need to work through before that happens though. I have a lot of issues that I need to deal with personally and I'm sure Timothy does as well. It's really nice to be on good terms with him again though. I missed talking to him. I could say anything to him and he wouldn't be shocked or look at me like I was crazy. And let me tell you, I told him some weird shit. If you knew all the freaky stuff that goes on in my brain, some of it which I have done, you'd probably leave me the hell alone...LOL. The good thing is...people can't read minds, and my outward appearance is deceptively mild. The reality is...I miss being able to talk to someone that knows all my shit and doesn't care...loves me despite it all. He was my best friend at one time. I miss that.

Ok, I think that's personal enough for now. I'm feeling all anxious just divulging that. Gotta start somewhere though. Who knows, maybe someday I'll give up all my sexual secrets in here. Don't hold your breath though...LOL. I have intentions of turning that stuff into a novel someday.

I"m totally wiped. Yesterday was ok, but today just took it all out of me. I had a really hard time getting out of bed this morning and it didn't get any better throughout the day. I didn't even take a lunch because I thought I'd fall asleep. I feel like falling asleep right now. It's a little early though. Ok, I'm also waiting to see if Timothy comes online. I can't wait forever though. I'm dead on my feet. I definitely need a good nights sleep. Tomorrow I won't get one. I gotta get up early Saturday morning...3:30! I want to be able to go to the writers meeting. I don't want to miss it. I would be totally bummed out if I did.

Ok, enough for now. I'm having a hard time putting coherent thoughts together, much less getting my fingers to type them down.

Ciao for now!