It's me again!

It would seem I am back. I've not bothered with this blog for about 4 years...pretty much forgot about it...but I think I need it again. A blog can be a good friend sometimes.

I just finished reading through all those old posts. It was kinda fun to see what was going on in my head back then. A bit cringey as well...LOL. I'm not really that "me" anymore. It's not just that circumstances have changed...and boy have they changed (don't worry, I'll get to that)...I'm just not that person inside anymore. It's not a bad thing. I'm just...more. 

For anyone who's read the old posts...Timothy is long gone. He's not even Timothy anymore. He's Ananda Kaleign Paulus. He's officially changed his name. Last I heard/saw, he was Buddhist and had shaved his head. That's been a while ago. I wish him well and hope he's happy. 

So, wondering what I've been up to since I last posted? So much that it's impossible to tell you everything at the moment. I'll just give you an update of where my life is at present: I'm engaged to a wonderful British man and planning to move over there and get married! 

Crazy, huh? Who would have thought? How did I get from "there" to "here"? Well, stick around and I'll tell you all about the last 4 years. For now, I'll just give you the condensed version. I met Philip McCabe on a penpal site in June of 2010. We stopped talking for a bit and then got back in contact in December of that year and our friendship just got stronger. He's an amazing man. I planned a trip over there...he was going to take me York...but he changed his plans and decided to take his girls on a trip to Egypt(2011). A cruise down the Nile. He said I should come along! I did. That was my first trip abroad. My first time meeting Phil. It wasn't the last though. We continued talking. The next year (2012) I went to visit him again...for 7 weeks! He planned some other trips for us. We finally went to York...and Rome...and Nice! It was an amazing visit. We continued talking. As far as I knew we were still just "friends", despite things not being quite platonic during my last visit. Another trip was planned for the next year. I was only going to be able to do 5 weeks this time (2013).  A couple of months before I left to go over there we were talking and I was mentioning again how much I would love to live over there and I was asking him questions about how much apartments cost and what all it would take to live there. He was explaining a few things to me then he said...or you could just stay with me. I was blown away! I thanked him, not really knowing what sort of arrangement he was talking about...but happy to get anything. I think it was the next day when I asked him if he meant I could stay with him until I found a place...or indefinitely. He laughed and said "indefinitely". We talked more about it and he finally told me that he'd researched the process a bit and said his plan was to move me over there and if we were still agreeable after a bit then we would get married. Yeah...married! 

So, that was me...engaged. And with me thinking that I would never get married again too! I know...it's not happened yet...LOL. It's in the works though. I'm happy. Scared and nervous and excited...but happy. Sometimes I get so worried that things won't work out...that I'll mess it up...but my rational mind tells me that's not going to happen. Not because of anything I do or don't do...but because he's so steady and patient and easy. He doesn't expect me to be perfect. It's pretty cool. 

Anyway, I had my 5 week trip this summer. It went by so fast. He'd sold the old house and bought another...closer to town. I love it. Wigan is a wonderful place. This time there was a trip to Wales and one to Greece. It was amazing. When I came back I finally told my family that I was going to move to England and marry Phil. Mixed reactions. I'm going though. I can't pass up the chance to be the most amazing man I've ever known. No matter what happens...I have to at least try.

Oh, and I'm still working on the book...LOL. A lot of other projects in the works as well...even a couple of short storied that have been published in an ebook anthology. How cool is that? 

More later. I think that's enough for now. I'm pooped. Tomorrow is Saturday and it's the busiest day of the week. I'll try to do this more often. I know, I've got a lot of catching up to do. 

Ciao for now!